Turning Point

I am at a turning point & its a good thing. Ever since we turned in our paperwork I am finally excited about being a mom someday. This is something I have always wanted.....ever since I can remember. When I was in elementary school my teacher would ask what I wanted to be when I grew up, I always said a mom. That dream has never faltered. When I was single and all my friends were getting hitched, they would ask when it would be my turn. I always thought I don't care if I get married, I just wanna be a mom. I know a lot of others have thought the same way. This is not my turning point however. I have said time and time again how hard it has been for me the past five years (three being the most difficult) in throes of trying to get pregnant. Now that our paperwork is done, I have allowed myself to start "fantabating" about every fun thing there is about babies. I can even go by the baby sections and actually look at everything. Before, I bypassed that section. When I would get invited to a baby shower, I would get gift cards so I wouldn't have to look at baby stuff. Now I love it. I get excited not sad. For some reason I've gotten Pottery Barn Babies for years, but I always threw it away without looking....not anymore. I love this new.....whatever it is.