Ahhh....Mother's Day
So many thoughts have gone through my head about this oh so bittersweet day for me. This year actually took me by surprise because I had no melt down. Halle-freakin-lujah!! I know I will be a mom...someday. But, because I know this doesn't mean that it makes mother's day any easier. So with that here are my scattered random thoughts throughout the day:
1- I am very thankful that I have a family that supports our decision of adoption. My side and Brad's side of the family are very excited. I am so happy that they are just as excited as we are.
2- Just because I choose not to go to church on Mother's Day, does not make me a heathen or ungrateful. I choose not to go to church on this lovely day because I do not need to have it rubbed in my face that I cannot have children. I do not need to be reminded, I live it EVERYDAY. I also choose not to go to church on this day because I do not want to take any happiness out of it for others. Everyone in our church knows we are adopting and I don't need people to feel sorry for me or to watch what they say around me. I know I should go to church on this day because....actually I can't come up with one thing. So, for those that feel that I should've gone to church well, you can, quite frankly, shove it where the sun don't shine.
3- I am very thankful that I have a husband who gets me. I didn't even have to remind him of the dreaded day. He planned a day trip for us up to Lake Tahoe and we did everything I wanted to do. Gotta love my Bubba!!
4- When I am blessed to be a mother, I hope I am just as great of a mom as my sisters are. So here is my tribute to my sisters:
Shaunee- She is a mother of three. She has been a mom as long as I can remember. Wierd, I know, since we're only 15 mos. apart. But, she has been bossing me around FOREVER! Just kiddin. She was just training to be a mom. Her oldest child will be 15 in two months...HOLY CRAP! Anyhow, she and her hubby talk to him about EVERYTHING! I love this about her. They actually talk to him about sex. This is unheard of in our family. As far as our parents are concerned they still don't think I've had sex....we never got "the talk" and there's no proof that I've had it (ha ha..I'm funny). I learned all sex related things from my lovely sister. She even told me how to use a tampon. My mom wasn't into discussing things about our bodies. Anyhow, I love that she has these talks with him and I hope I can be just as open with my future kids.
Julianne- She has four crazy boys. She is 1 1/2 years younger than me. Even though she has four boys, she still leaves her house everyday. I don't know how she does it. She has something planned at all times. I think it is just to keep them entertained enough so they don't kill each other. She is also very patient. I don't think I've ever heard her yell at them, its crazy.
Kelly- She is 3 1/2 years younger than me and a mother of two. I love how she sticks to her rules with them and puts the smackdown on others who do not enforce her rules when they are with her children. (Does that make sense?) If you don't follow the same rules, you don't get the privilege to be with her children. And, let me tell you that it is a privilege. Those are her two precious commodities and she protects them at all times.
5- I love that Brad and I can talk about baby names now without having the feeling that I may throw up.
6- I love that my friend, The Mayor, is a mom. She adopted her very cute baby girl in January. Watching her go through this process has been awesome and makes me even more excited for it to be my turn. I also love that she gets everything I say and feel.
7- I love the IFC. There is only three of us and they are on my top two favorite people up here in No. Cal.
I really hope that everyone had a very happy Mother's Day. And, just for the record, I really do mean that (despite my rant/rage on #2).
1- I am very thankful that I have a family that supports our decision of adoption. My side and Brad's side of the family are very excited. I am so happy that they are just as excited as we are.
2- Just because I choose not to go to church on Mother's Day, does not make me a heathen or ungrateful. I choose not to go to church on this lovely day because I do not need to have it rubbed in my face that I cannot have children. I do not need to be reminded, I live it EVERYDAY. I also choose not to go to church on this day because I do not want to take any happiness out of it for others. Everyone in our church knows we are adopting and I don't need people to feel sorry for me or to watch what they say around me. I know I should go to church on this day because....actually I can't come up with one thing. So, for those that feel that I should've gone to church well, you can, quite frankly, shove it where the sun don't shine.
3- I am very thankful that I have a husband who gets me. I didn't even have to remind him of the dreaded day. He planned a day trip for us up to Lake Tahoe and we did everything I wanted to do. Gotta love my Bubba!!
4- When I am blessed to be a mother, I hope I am just as great of a mom as my sisters are. So here is my tribute to my sisters:
Shaunee- She is a mother of three. She has been a mom as long as I can remember. Wierd, I know, since we're only 15 mos. apart. But, she has been bossing me around FOREVER! Just kiddin. She was just training to be a mom. Her oldest child will be 15 in two months...HOLY CRAP! Anyhow, she and her hubby talk to him about EVERYTHING! I love this about her. They actually talk to him about sex. This is unheard of in our family. As far as our parents are concerned they still don't think I've had sex....we never got "the talk" and there's no proof that I've had it (ha ha..I'm funny). I learned all sex related things from my lovely sister. She even told me how to use a tampon. My mom wasn't into discussing things about our bodies. Anyhow, I love that she has these talks with him and I hope I can be just as open with my future kids.
Julianne- She has four crazy boys. She is 1 1/2 years younger than me. Even though she has four boys, she still leaves her house everyday. I don't know how she does it. She has something planned at all times. I think it is just to keep them entertained enough so they don't kill each other. She is also very patient. I don't think I've ever heard her yell at them, its crazy.
Kelly- She is 3 1/2 years younger than me and a mother of two. I love how she sticks to her rules with them and puts the smackdown on others who do not enforce her rules when they are with her children. (Does that make sense?) If you don't follow the same rules, you don't get the privilege to be with her children. And, let me tell you that it is a privilege. Those are her two precious commodities and she protects them at all times.
5- I love that Brad and I can talk about baby names now without having the feeling that I may throw up.
6- I love that my friend, The Mayor, is a mom. She adopted her very cute baby girl in January. Watching her go through this process has been awesome and makes me even more excited for it to be my turn. I also love that she gets everything I say and feel.
7- I love the IFC. There is only three of us and they are on my top two favorite people up here in No. Cal.
I really hope that everyone had a very happy Mother's Day. And, just for the record, I really do mean that (despite my rant/rage on #2).
posted @9:16 PM
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I really like this post.You're going to be an awesome mom when the time comes! I've never been crazy about church on Mother's Day either, it's just one of those days that gets rubbed in faces and it makes even me feel bad. it always seems like a competition to see who's husband di what and who got what and who did it the best and blah blah blah.
on a different note I was wondering if you could send me your email address. i am going private with my blog but wanted to invite you. thanks.
I don't even know what to say, except that I love you so much. You are so awesome. And...you weren't kidding about me bossing you around forever. I know I was a jerk as an older sister, and I'm paying for it with #1. Karma is a bitch.
you might need my email address to send me your email--brain fart.
jackmanheidi@gmail.com
i love that you are so excited to become a mommy, no matter how your child comes to you. that is just one of the many reasons why you will be an awesome mom. i hope and pray for you and brad daily that God has planted a seed for your family somewhere, and i look forward to the day your blog tells us how that seed has sprouted, and all of your mommy dreams are coming true. love you, girl! xoxo
As far as I am concerned, you raised 2 kids already. Me and Dan. We both lived with you and Bubba for over a year, and I know it wasn't easy! All I can say is that you are going to be such a good Mom!!! I know that from experience, just seeing how you dealt with ME! You both will be amazing and I can't wait to see how it all works out.
Holly, you rock. And Floyd is going to be a very lucky kid. I wish nothing but fiery red hair in your future.
Holly, you are the same! You still can through it out with the best of them and all the while I smile and totally understand you!
I love the explanation of your family!
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