Slacker!!
To steal my sister, Kelly's, comment..."I'm a blog slacker." This whole mommy thing has me running in circles and by the end of the night I just don't have the energy. I would use nap time if Grady slept for more than 30-45 mins. I use that time to make it look like I clean my house or most of the time, a much needed sit down/time out. That's my excuse, so don't be a hater.
Anyhow, I have a zillion things going on in my head. As usual, I'm purging my brain in the way of a "list".
* I don't know how people handle more than one kid. I did have the pleasure of watching my friends two girls while she gave birth to her third. I had them for exactly 50 hours straight...no breaks. When Brad walked through the door on the second night I didn't even say hello to him...my first words were "We are not having three children. At this point I don't know if I can handle even two." He, of course, just laughed. I did figure out what was so "hard", or should I say "exhausting". My little friends are very good little girls. They entertain themselves and kept Grady occupied. What was hard was trying to keep them entertained so the whining wasn't overboard...cuz I cannot handle the whining...keeping them fed and happy ...but, oh yeah, I have a nine month old that still takes a bottle and naps. All had different needs and it was difficult to juggle and keep everyone happy.
* I don't think I'm as good as a wife as I need to be or should be. Trying to work on that.
* Grady is almost ready to walk. I'm not ready for my baby to not be a baby anymore.
* "Mommy guilt".
* I have been sucked into watching Real Housewives of New Jersey and Tori and Dean. I'm ashamed to admit it, but now that I'm out with it, I feel better.
* Summer time!!
* Grady's sleeping and eating. Well, Grady in general.
* Father's Day. I was way more emotional about Father's Day than Mother's Day. I would brag about how awesome Brad is, but I don't want anybody to puke (your welcome Mary).
There's more, but now I'm tired. 2 of those I may expand on...depends on how much they continue to eat at me.
Anyhow, I have a zillion things going on in my head. As usual, I'm purging my brain in the way of a "list".
* I don't know how people handle more than one kid. I did have the pleasure of watching my friends two girls while she gave birth to her third. I had them for exactly 50 hours straight...no breaks. When Brad walked through the door on the second night I didn't even say hello to him...my first words were "We are not having three children. At this point I don't know if I can handle even two." He, of course, just laughed. I did figure out what was so "hard", or should I say "exhausting". My little friends are very good little girls. They entertain themselves and kept Grady occupied. What was hard was trying to keep them entertained so the whining wasn't overboard...cuz I cannot handle the whining...keeping them fed and happy ...but, oh yeah, I have a nine month old that still takes a bottle and naps. All had different needs and it was difficult to juggle and keep everyone happy.
* I don't think I'm as good as a wife as I need to be or should be. Trying to work on that.
* Grady is almost ready to walk. I'm not ready for my baby to not be a baby anymore.
* "Mommy guilt".
* I have been sucked into watching Real Housewives of New Jersey and Tori and Dean. I'm ashamed to admit it, but now that I'm out with it, I feel better.
* Summer time!!
* Grady's sleeping and eating. Well, Grady in general.
* Father's Day. I was way more emotional about Father's Day than Mother's Day. I would brag about how awesome Brad is, but I don't want anybody to puke (your welcome Mary).
There's more, but now I'm tired. 2 of those I may expand on...depends on how much they continue to eat at me.
posted @11:41 PM
7 Comments:
Ya, I don't think I could ever deal with more than one kid either...oh wait, I have four! What the freaking heck was I thinking? Seriously, did I really think I could do four kids? I am nuts!
I am right there with you. Everything you talked about is going through my mind right now too. Okay, all except the Housewives/Tori and Dean...and just for the record, I would probably be watching those too if we had Directv back! Ha!!
One thing I have learned in all of this wife/mothering/housewife stuff is that everything comes in waves. I just have to try my best and not rip myself apart so much all the time. Easier said than done! You are WAAAAAAAAAAAYYYYYYY better at being a wife and mom than you think and I know Brad and Grady would vouch for that! Love you!
I LOVE Tori and Dean!!!
Mommy guilt is forever and always.
I'm glad you blogged...I love reading your thoughts.
Mommy guilt? What's mommy guilt?
Bwahahahahahahaha!
Why do we have to have so much guilt? Also why did no one ever tell me about it before I had kids???
Wow, I can't believe your little man is almost walking!!!! We have to hook up sometime late July/early August when we make our quarterly SoCal run!
I'm with you on the whining...Emma is queen of whine...I don't know how much more I can take...must be a girl thing.
I love Tori & Dean, too! Even Tori gets frazzled...a lot...and she has a live-in nanny.
Hey I feel everything your talking about! I have beat myself up since the day we brought Blake home from the hospital over 14 years ago about how I should do this and shouldn't do that and I'd like to say I don't do it anymore but I still do! I have try really hard to just tell myself I'm doing the best that I can and that's just going to have to be good enough! As for you being a good mom and wife. Trust me you are WAY WAY BETTER than you give yourself credit for. Just remember were our worst judges. Oh and you will do just fine when you have more than just Grady. I use to think I could never have any kids because when I babysat other peoples kids I almost went crazy. It's so different when it's your own kids and you get them one at time(usually) and you adjust and so does the whole family when you add another little one to the mix. It all works out! Hang in there! I think your awesome!!!
JoLynn
You'll never think you're good enough. Mommy guilt will last forever. Two facts of life, that totally are crap. That fact is that you are the best mom and wife and doing awesome. We all have faults and that's just life. The trick is to try and make the next day better....and don't beat yourself up. Just think of all the people on RHoNJ-you're way better:)
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