One Year Ago
One year ago last Sat. (the 19th), Miss NeeNo turned 4!! Brad and I gifted her The Bee Movie. And, we watched her and Sim-o swim in the kiddie pool while the adults enjoyed a delicious sandwich from Mr. Pickles.
On my cute niece's birthday, Brad's stepmom, Vicki, passed away suddenly. Little did we know that July 19th was just the beginning of a very (I don't know what word to use here) time in our lives.
One year ago today, July 23rd, was Vicki's funeral. One year ago today, we got the call from our adoption caseworker that a birth mom wanted to meet us!!! Two days from now will mark one year from when Mary was diagnosed with cancer. Five days from now will be one year from when we met our Rachel. To say that my heart is full of every emotion is an understatement. I realize how lucky we are. I realize how blessed we are. I still have no words. I'm not sure I ever will. Remembering that week honestly makes me cry. I don't think I ever shed that many tears in one week my whole life. My emotions at the time were all over the place. I realized that week that I had the "talent" of compartmentalizing my stress (it was a talent that week, trust me...maybe not so much now though). I remember a few days after meeting Rachel, I had a 100% complete meltdown when I allowed everything to hit me at once. It was not pretty. Poor Brad. Remembering that week I remember feeling like I was living in a dream and a nightmare at the same time. It has been a whirlwind since then. We got our baby and Mary is cancer free! I wish Vicki was here to meet and play with Grady. She would adore him just like she adored Brad. We think and talk about her often. We miss her, but we know we will see her again and that she is looking down on us with her big smile and awesome laugh that I miss so much!!!
posted @12:00 PM
8 Comments:
we lost mike's dad 11 years ago on the 19th... we've kept a picture of him in our hallway since michael was born so he will always be a part of our family.
i couldn't imagine the emotions you were feeling that week last year, and will probably feel every time you think of that week. always remember how blessed you are.
Great post. You are one tough chick! Loving the photo of you and Grady at the beach below.
We lost Lee a year ago on the 15th and then our Bubba Cat on the 19th...which also happens to be Emma's birthday!
I thought my emotions were mixed! WOW...I can't even imagine how you must have been feeling this week last year! Hang in there, my friend! Just look at that bright, smiling face on that little man cub of yours, and try to relive the positive emotions!
XOXOXO
What a year it has been....
By the way, I am SO glad your blog is fixed now. Now I can stand coming here!! You must have a really, REALLY talented blog designer at your disposal.
(Don't even START to complain about how long it takes me to do stuff..... Just don't even go there sister.)
I can't even imagine all that you must have been feeling. How on earth did you do it? You are one amazing lady!
Holy crap lady- 4 weeks and you have not updated your blog!!??!! What the heck have you been doing?? How was the sealing yesterday??
Well, all I can say is that I hope this and all future years are full of tears of joy, rather than tears of sorrow.
...And now I'm going to go apply for a job at Hallmark.
3 MONTHS and NOTHING! Come on lady!
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