Re-Adjustment

Apparently its been a while since my last post. I guess you could say that I had an unplanned break? I could give you excuses, but who really cares? A lot has happened...August was a very busy and fun month. Grady's adoption was finalized (woohoo), went to AZ to meet my newest nephew Carter, went to Monterey with Brad's siblings and Dad, Grady was sealed to us (double woohoo) and then of course endless visits to the beach, pool and now Disneyland. In August, my sister, Shaunee and her family moved to Carlsbad...which is maybe an hour from here. Its been nice to see all them more often. Grady turned 1!!! And, we went to Wyoming. Oh, and I started school again. And, a few weeks ago Brad and I celebrated our 8 year wedding anniversary. Crazy. Time flies.

Now before I begin my soul searching post...please know I am truly happy. This whole stay-at-home mom thing is quite an adjustment for me. It's hard for me to explain it. I love being with Grady and getting to see every little moment. But, I think that perhaps this staying at home thing has maybe made me a little bit lazier. I know, was it even possible? Yup. I am very much a procrastinator. If I don't feel like doing something like the laundry or groccery shopping...who cares I'll do it tomorrow is my attitude. Everything is I'll do it tomorrow. Then tomorrow comes and guess what...doesn't get done. It has obviously been an adjustment for me to figure out me as "Mom". I still don't have it figured out. I knew myself as all the other roles I am/was, but this is for sure different. I'm still trying to wrap my head around it.

So, to try to figure it all out I decided to start running. Okay, let me back up here.....I read a blog called the r house (I'm too lazy to link to it, so if you're interested look at my sidebar), it's an adoption blog that I love to read....anyhow, she invited anyone who wants to run a half marathon in moab in march..the catch is you have to wear an adoption t-shirt (to get the awareness out there and all). I was way excited, immediately called Yannette and conned her into agreeing to do it with me (a few weeks after the conning she found herself "with child" and can no longer run a half marathon...this is a miracle BTW. Remember this is my friend who is in the IFC. But, now I think I may be the only standing member of the IFC...seems how the other two are now able to get pregnant...we may need to rethink the name). So, that's the very short version on how this whole running thing came about. After Yannette told me she was pregnant, I told Brad I still wanted and needed to run the half marathon. At the time I didn't know why. This is what I've come up with: my butt is expanding at an alarming rate, but more importantly I need to have some sort of goal that I can accomplish....its been way too long. Yes, finishing school is a goal, but that is going to take FOREVER!! I need something shorter term. I need something that I can be proud of. And, this is why I keep running. I have now been doing it for 6 weeks. This is amazing. I can't remember the last time I kept anything up for 6 weeks. I'll start something, but rarely do I finish it. Running has kept me a little bit sane. I look forward to the time by myself. I'm not sure I'll be doing the half marathon in Moab, but I will be doing a half marathon somewhere around that time. Since Yannette can't join me, my sister Shaunee let me con her into running one with me. Mary flaked out already....loser! Brad is very encouraging too...he makes me go run when I don't want to. I think he realized how important it is for me to actually do this than I do.

I'm sure I'll survive this "re-adjustment" but how much longer will it take?? It's driving me crazy!!!